By Tom Reed

I killed my first deer on an October morning two days after my fourteenth birthday on my grandmother’s ranch in south central Colorado. I can still see that deer, ghost-gray in the dawn, its hide and form more like smoke than animal. It is a picture that I will gaze upon when I am too old to climb any mountains. I can remember how I felt, how there was a tightness in my chest and a trembling in my legs and arms. I can remember the shot and I can remember seeing the young buck fall. And I still feel the mixture of sadness and elation—a strange cocktail that I have sipped many times since. I do not remember much about the rifle that I shot.

The next year, I took a similar buck on that ranch, a young mule deer as adolescent as I and certainly as naïve. As I bent to the warmth of that young buck to field dress him, the sun hit the high crown of Pike’s Peak, far to the east. I do not remember what rifle I carried, nor do I remember which knife I used. They were tools. At my feet was a life I had taken and the essence of the hunt.

I do not know how many elk or deer I have shot since then; perhaps I could tick back through the years and come up with some kind of accounting. I have killed moose and bighorn sheep. I have chased pheasants and chukar partridge behind my gun dogs and scrambled over desert crags after quail. I have traveled many western states and slept beneath plenty of stars. It’s been a good way of going. There are memories etched deeply into my soul, but the gun, the tool, has only a small niche in the bookshelf that holds the stories of those hunts.

It is clear to me that there is a widening gulf in the sporting community—those of us who hunt and fish. When we elect a President this fall, there will be a split among sportsmen between those who vote wildlife and those who vote gun. With 47 million sporting votes at stake and two candidates vying for 5 percent of the voters in crucial states where a lot of hunters live, the ramifications are huge.

As an outdoorsman living in the West, it’s hard to ignore the damage that has been done to our wildlife heritage in the last four years. Places where I used to hunt pronghorn and sage grouse on the Upper Green River outside Pinedale, Wyoming, are now oil and gas fields. A ranch where I once killed a dandy mule deer buck in Wyoming’s Powder River Basin was roaded and tapped for coalbed methane two years ago. It will not be the same in my lifetime.

For wildlife, and for Western public lands hunters, things are bad all over and it’s thanks, in a large part, to a President who took office with the votes of gun owners and hunters. This year, I haven’t seen any “Sportsmen for Bush” bumper stickers. I have seen a few “Sportsmen Against Bush” bumper stickers.

Still, Bush’s support among some sportsmen is very strong. These are the gun owners who, swayed by the propaganda of the National Rifle Association, are convinced that any Democrat in the White House will take away all our firearms. The NRA’s extremely successful media campaign of the past two decades has whipped that wing of sportsman’s vote to a literal frenzy. They will vote for a Democrat when hell freezes over.

Then there are the hunters who realize that it’s about the hunt, not about the tool. They have seen the damage done to public and private lands in the past few years. They have walked the land, and have mourned for the places they used to stalk mule deer or antelope with a good rifle in hand. They read the papers and know that George W. Bush has taken away protections on 20 million acres of wetlands, given back 3 million and called this a net gain. They know that our President has signed away water rights on Blue Ribbon trout streams and has opened critical roadless areas—regions crucial to wildlife—to development. They know that this President has done more damage to our wildlife heritage than any President, Republican or Democrat, in the history of modern wildlife management.

When Clinton was elected to the White House, the rabid pro gun folks said the government was coming to our doors to take away our rifles, shotguns and pistols. No agent showed up at my place.

But I have seen the place where I used to hunt for pronghorn. There’s a pump jack there and a sign that warns me of possible poison gas.

© by Tom Reed
used by permission of Backcountry Hunters and Anglers

Tom Reed is a registered Republican, a life-long Westerner and a founding board member of Backcountry Hunters and Anglers (www.backcountryhunters.org). He lives in the mountains outside Laramie, Wyoming.